Action

Up until today there’s so much I’ve written in my blogs, so many advices I’ve given to people and so many things I’ve said. However, how many of that has been applied by me. It’s not zero, just a very low number. It’s not that I can’t do the things I’ve stated, I just never. You may know how to tell people what to do but when it comes to yourself it’s just different.

At many times people actually know what to do, they just don’t and this is what’s happening to me. Well, what’s done is done and what has not will remain undone. Past can never be tempered with. So what can be done is add action to the words. Do what’s been said. Apply what’s in mind. Lets hope I can.

Do, don’t just talk and think

Achieve

Everyone has different things that they want to achieve. Achievements doesn’t have to be something really amazing or special. It could be something simple like being happy for one whole day. It doesn’t mean that everyone must aim to become a billionaire, a Hollywood movie star, a world class doctor or anything like that. Some people are contented with having a loving family and stable job. Some other might be contented being able to live a carefree life themselves.

There is almost nothing that can’t be achieved. That especially goes for something that has been achieved by someone else already. Wouldn’t you ask yourself, “If he/she can do it, why can’t I?” I would. In fact, I keep telling myself “If someone will do this why not let the someone be me?” You should never ask whether or not you can achieve something. Instead, ask yourself how much you are willing to put in to achieve what you want to. Talent without hard work means nothing at all.

For the past few years I knew what I want to achieve and I knew I can achieve it. However, I never knew how much I’m willing to give in to achieve that. Today I can say I’ve put in almost nothing at all. I’m far from achieving the big dreams that I have but it’s still highly probable to be achieved. It’s never too late to start working for your aims, goals or dreams. Just throw in your effort and you’ll always have a chance.

Achievement comes with effort

Control

Machines like the TV could be control by merely pressing buttons on a remote but that will never be the case for humans. Countless people around my age told me that they’re controlled by their parents. Parents trying to control their child well, that’s a very common thing. It always happens but how is it possible to actually control someone? As I see it, it isn’t at all possible. You could restrict people in certain ways. You could stop providing support for someone, trying to hold back someone or try to convince someone but you can never control a person’s actions and decisions.

That is exactly the case for me. I do things that I feel that I should do. I do things that I want to do. I don’t care who’s against me. I can argue for hours with my parents. I scolded my parents countless times for being unreasonable. It doesn’t matter who you are to me. Respect must be earned through actions not relations. The only thing the relations is restricting me is from taking physical actions. Verbally, there's no restriction at all. I can even use vulgarities with no hessitation.

Only one person can control you and that person is none other than yourself. Listen to people, hear others’ advises and think about them. You’re not always right. But when you are, don’t hesitate to stand up for yourself. I’m not asking you to be a rebellious child, please do not misunderstand. It is only how I do things. I’m just saying that if you really do want to be controlled not a single soul can control you.

People can’t be controlled

Choice

Every step one takes is a choice. That’s how it should be. Nothing should be forced and nothing can be forced. Every single step will always be a choice. That’s the fair thing about human life. Everyone has a choice. To attempt taking away that privilege from a person means to attempt taking away the one fair thing that we all have. However I think a lot of people choose to do that.

Many parents decide for their child. Choosing for them the steps they’re going to take. Choosing for them the path they’re going to walk. Who’s taking the steps? Who’s walking the path? One should always decide for themselves. Don’t ask for anyone to decide for you. The choices are there for you to make, not for others to make for you.

There is no right and wrong choice. If the choice is really what you think is right, it’s a right choice. Everyone has a difference scale and different view on things. What matters is your choice fits yours. There’s no choice that will fit everyone’s but there’s always one that fits your own. I always tell people, it’s your choice. There’s no right or wrong. Right and wrong are merely words created by man. Don't regret upon any choice you made, you don't know what else it affects other than what you can see. Of course, it's also a choice whether or not to take note of what I've written.

It’s always your choice

Opportunities

Yesterday was the school of key officers/RCC meeting/CLD orientation test and as a spirited Leo secretary I went. During the school of key officers, Lion Clayton the RCC told us that we shouldn’t neglect the people right at the corner as that is where the most hidden ideas are. He also told us that he was one of those in the corner and he was approached and is given the opportunity. That triggered me to think. Why? That’s because I was one of the corner people as well.

Ever since young I was shy and I was lacking of self confidence. I’ve always chosen to sit at the back corners where I’m more hidden. However, deep inside of me I’ve always hope that I could be someone. I hoped that one day I could be given the opportunity to be in the limelight. There will always be opportunity hanging around you but most of the time it doesn’t come straight to you. You have to step forward to grab it.

The opportunities I’m talking about are not only limited to the opportunities to take up positions or do work but it applies to every single aspect of the life. I’ve always regretted that I didn’t step forward and take all the opportunities and that is why today I’m no longer the one sitting at the corner. I’m the one sitting in the front row trying to get more opportunities to make up for the things I’ve missed.

Opportunities, reach forth and grab it.

Here we go

Firstly, to everyone one who doesn’t know, yesterday was Leo Club of Petaling Jaya Integrity’s 10^th Annual Installation and I have been installed as the secretary of fiscal year 2009/2010. To all PJI members, good job well done and do look ahead as we have much more ahead of us in this fiscal year. It’s only the beginning and it will only get better and better.

Before the installation began I fear the event wouldn’t go well. As it started, there were a few problems here and there and thus I felt worried that the problems will go on. The response of the crowd towards the performances weren’t really good as well. I really feared we will end up losing the crowd. When it’s the time for us the new BOD to get installed my fear faded. I’m up on stage and I felt proud and filled with spirit.

The directors we installed first and then the treasurer. And then it was my turn, the new secretary of Leo Club of PJI. I took my step forward and stand tall and proud. And filled with the spirit I have I replied with a loud “Yes, I do.” The VPs and president was then installed and they too replied with spirit. Then it was time for us to prepare for our performance. As our performance was announced the crowd started to cheer. I felt full of energy, filled with spirit and as we walked out the crowd went louder. It was really boosting us up and it felt really high too. The response was amazing and I really thank all the audience for that.

And now, to all current and even future PJI members, let us prepare ourselves for this fiscal year. Let us put in everything we’ve got and get everything we’ve ever wanted together. Together we shall “fishify” ourselves (Term from Lion Alan’s speech in the installation).

PJI, here we go!

True Self

How many people actually do reveal their true self to everyone? If you think properly humans are actually quite scary because you never know if they’re being true. People pretend to be someone they not or like something they don’t to fit in or even other purposes. Should people just become their true self in front of everyone? Personally, I think one can pretend to a certain extent.

Many people see me as a person who’s brimming with confidence. Ever since young I have always seen myself as a nobody, a useless person. As I grew up I keep talking about things I seem to be good at. Every single time when I fail or when people look down on me I feel freaking screwed up. I cannot lose too much, that’s why I keep boasting everything I’m good at.

Until today, I can see myself somewhere but I still feel damn screwed up being looked down upon. I can lose, that’s what I say and it’s true but I never did say I don’t feel anything when I lose. I need to be amazing and I know I can. That’s what I tell myself to keep going. Today, I believe I can not because I have some kind of special ability but because what and how I see everything.

In other words what I have been doing was acting to be stronger and trying to convince myself I am. It definitely works and I still do need to. However I never try to act to fit in, trick people or anything close to that. I only become what I’m not to change what I am. That is my choice and I won’t advice anyone to do it. I have no regrets doing this but it’s a matter of choice. Not everyone will like doing this so it’s not an advice, it’s just an option.

Can anyone actually show their true self at all times?